Fresher Pressure

I’d love to tell you that my main reason for going to university was to share Jesus with my non-Christian friends, that on my first day I stepped into my lecture theatre with a missional mindset, but that is simply not true.

I had always been ambitious, and my undergraduate degree was just a first step onto a career ladder motivated by money. I was more concerned with being in the top 5% of my class than I was sharing Jesus. I subscribed to the ever-pressing mentality that achievements would bring success, and that success would bring joy.

You can imagine my disappointment when after 4 months of study, I had yet to achieve a first on anything I had written. The word “failure” circled my mind as I questioned my purpose whilst at university and declared that if I didn’t graduate with a first, then my time as a student would be worthless.

In my pursuit of academic success, I failed to recognise that I wasn’t the only one struggling and I wasn’t the only one who felt like a failure. I was, however, the only one with a source of strength that I was yet to tap into. I was the only one who knew Jesus.

After Christmas break, I was determined to change my perspective. The stress of an increasing workload became an opportunity to be a Light alongside my also-slightly-struggling course mates, rather than another fall into isolation.

Study sessions over brunch turned into faith – filled conversations. Instagram scrolling in the library turned into productive revision groups. Group chats filled with worry turned into conversations of Hope.

I didn’t graduate with a first. Instead, I graduated with lifelong friends, testimonies of redemption that began with a study session, and an altered perspective. A perspective that declares that there must be a bigger purpose for our time at university, and as students, as Jesus followers, we must step into it.

How are you planning on stepping into yours?

Victoria Seithel

Communications Developer

Viki loves raising up new leaders and is committed to sharing the hope-filled story of student mission with the churches she serves.

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